Transvestia

The chief worry I have now, is that having more or less sublimated my own TV leanings, the subject is caus- ing me worry in another direction. Perhaps an explana- tion would be that I am trying to relive my own experi- ence through causing it to others.

For the past five years, after getting bored with working in an office, I have been working for the credit department of a large mail order firm. In this capacity I visit several households in the London area daily, to check the credit worthiness of applicants for deferred payments. Since a great many of these applicants are women it also occurs that I frequently encounter widows, divorcees, and occasionally unmarried mothers. A cer- tain number of these have small sons, and no close male relatives.

Not long after I started the job I encountered a wo- man with a boy aged then about six years old and in general conversation she mentioned that she would have preferred a daughter. I jumped on this remark, almost unable to control my feelings, for I was thrilled at the idea of somehow getting her to put the boy in dresses.

For the time being, however, it will suffice to say that I have been responsible over three years for having about fifteen boys put into girl's clothes for one reason or another.

With some it was only a matter of on and off to take a 'cute' photograph. With a few however, I have man- aged to sway the mothers to keep the boys in dresses for longer periods, and to my knowledge there are three who are still in dresses and their hair allowed to grow. Some of this was achieved by the offer to hard-up mothers of free girl's clothes, and I have spent a considerable amount of money in providing wardrobes of girl's attire, telling the mothers that they are samples and shopsoiled stock.

Anyway, this gave me an unaccountable satisfaction, until I began to realize what harm I might be causing the children.

About this time import restrictions were lifted on American magazines, and I first came across a booklet

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